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Mindfuck #3: I Am

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“No matter what ya calls me, I am what I am an’ tha’s all I yam.” ~ Popeye

Very little thought is given to the way in which we use words, especially in reference to ourselves.  Often times, we place a great deal of our identity into things that are not us.  We equate who we really are with an object or concept that is not who we are, but rather something that we have.

For instance, people often say things like, “I am black” or “I am Christian” or “I am a redhead.”  Oh really?  That’s what you are?  Are you sure you don’t simply “have black skin” and “have Christian beliefs” and “have red hair”?

Such behavior is not inherited; it is learned.  We aren’t born identifying with things around us.  That line of thinking is socially conditioned into us.

Would you say that you are your car?  No, that’s ridiculous.  You’re very clearly not your car.  You have a car, but you are not your car.  A car is simply a vessel that you move around in.  You just attach yourself to the vehicle temporarily for the purposes of travel, carrying heavy loads, and doing other such tasks that you wouldn’t be able to do without it.

How about when you play a video game?  We often refer to the character as ourselves.  We say “I did this,” “I moved that,” “I shot the enemy,” and so forth.  But we are not the character.  The character is simply an avatar – a vessel – that we attach ourselves to by way of the controller in order to move about the digital world and do things like fly, shoot lasers, etc.  If you’ve ever been on a forum, you know that the little icon to the left of your post is also called your avatar.  It’s not you, either.  It’s merely a temporary representation of you that may not have anything to do with who you really are.

So what about your body?  Do you identify with that?  Your body is just a collection of cells that grouped together to form a collective unit.  It has more in common with a pixelated video game character than anything else, and your mind would then be the controller.  If you lose a few cells, do you necessarily stop being you?  If you lose an arm, a leg, or a kidney, do you stop being you?  No.  At least, you don’t have to stop being you.  It’s your choice whether or not you let such physical changes affect who you are.  Ultimately, all that really changes is what you can do with your body, but that doesn’t change who you are.  Even if you die, who you are will continue to live on in some form (even if it’s just a memory).

You are no more your body than you are your car or a character in a video game.  Who you are is the person in the driver’s seat, pushing the controls that make the body run, and your mind is the steering console.

“I think, therefore I am.” ~ René Descartes

During the early 17th century, a French philosopher by the name of René Descartes speculated on the basic principles of existence.  He wanted to know what was actually real, or at least what could be proven to be real.

There are two basic ways in which something can be known: empirically or logically.  Empiricism has to do with observation through the senses, while logic has to do with mental reasoning.  Descartes began with the simple observation that there are times when the senses appear to fail to accurately depict the world around us.  For instance, you see something out of the corner of your eye, but it isn’t actually there when you go to check on it with your full vision.  It is a mistake in observation.

Descartes reasoned that, due to the inaccuracies of the senses, it is suspect as to whether or not they can be trusted at all, so he rejects them entirely.

This establishes the notion that any and all physical things observed are potentially nothing more than mere illusions, fabrications of the mind.  It also leaves Descartes with nothing but logical reasoning, and all of that is just a fiction in the mind.  There are no perfectly straight lines in nature, no perfectly three-sided objects, no perfectly round objects; such things are mental short-hands of our own invention.  They do not actually exist.  They are illusions as well.

So then what does that leave?  Nothing, really.  Or does it?

If everything is merely an illusion, then there must be something that is being disillusioned.  There must be some observer of the trick.  Descartes himself referred to these illusions as the act of some demon.  But if there was a demon, the demon must have a victim to play his tricks on, even if that victim is simply himself.

Descartes’ method does not really give us much detail as to the qualities of the observer, just that there is one and that we can be 100% certain of this.  For all anyone knows, the world could be completely accurate as we observe it, or we could be a free-floating consciousness in a void without a body; but it can never be proven one way or the other what the actual nature of reality is.  So everything besides “I am” or “I exist” must be taken on faith.

This tends to piss off a lot of empiricists and scientists that rely heavily or even exclusively on their empirical observations.  Such a conclusion would pull the carpet out from under their feet by establishing the fickle nature of even their most basic assumptions.

“And God said to Moses, ‘I AM WHO I AM.’  And he said, ‘Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you’ … This is my name forever, and this is my memorial to all generations. ” ~ Exodus 3:14-15

Scientists aren’t the only ones pissed off by this conclusion.

Among those that believe in Judaism, Christianity, or Islam, there is much time spent worrying and debating over pedantic little details like “Is God’s name YHWH or YHVH?  Jehovah or Allah?” “Is Jesus, Yeshu, or Yeshua the correct name of Christ?”  “What color was Jesus’ skin?”  “Is it sinful for me to take only the bread and not the wine during communion?” “If I eat meat on a Friday, am I going to hell for it?”  “If I forgot to say PBUH after Mohammad’s name, will God hate me?”  “Do I need to wash my hands before prayer?”  “If I have a cheeseburger, is God going to punish me for not staying Kosher?”

If your focus is on minor details like that, then I’m sorry to say that you have missed the forest for the trees.  Without seeing the bigger picture, these little things are rather irrelevant.  If your car doesn’t even have wheels, what does it matter if the dashboard lights aren’t working?  Even if the engine worked perfectly, you’re not really getting anywhere, now are you?

All three faiths respect and defer to Exodus and to Moses.  So if you claim to be a believer of Christianity, Judaism, or Islam, there’s really no excuse for not knowing and understanding this particular passage.  God spells out rather clearly here as to who and what he is.

God is.  It’s as simple as that.  Most everything else is just minor details.

You are.  I am.  That’s as much as anyone can ever truly know for sure.  If it turns out that there is no God and we’re just a consciousness in a void; then by definition, you are God because you are the creator of the whole universe, since you are the one creating the illusion.  You call the shots, so why would you cast yourself, or anyone else, into eternal torment?  Why would you make yourself perform rituals and subjugating acts of worship?  You are the God of your own universe.

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Venenum Veritas

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“Idealism is what precedes experience; cynicism is what follows.” ~ David Wolf, astronaut

There’s an old saying that I’ve often taken as my own personal motto.  It goes, “Expect the worst, hope for the best.”  I’ve always felt it to be very pragmatic because if the worst ever happens, you’ll be prepared for it and not caught off-guard.  Conversely, if anything other than the worst case scenario happens, you will be pleasantly surprised.  So it would seem that, by following such a logical strategy as that, you would be very well off, no?

Lately, I’m no longer so sure.

I’ve always been a very analytically-minded person.  And while it’s often good to have a back-up plan just in case things go wrong, such has left me carrying a lot of worry around, most of it needless. As the Dalai Lama says, “If a problem can be solved, there is no use worrying about it.  If it can’t be solved, worrying will do no good.”

Cynicism has also made me a very untrusting person.  Some people have told me that’s a good thing, since few are exactly who they claim to be and few are worthy of trust.  Others have said that, in continuing to think along those lines, I will continue to create only what’s on my mind, and what’s on my mind is often cynicism; so my world will seek to placate those thoughts.

I know where it comes from.  It comes from being a student of the truth and always wishing to know that which is true and correct, but at the same time having been lied to and deceived so many times in my life.  Not all of it was intentional, a lot of it was reaction to mental aberrations (actually, all lying is the result of mental aberrations), and a lot of it also comes from my own failings – my own pains and misunderstandings.  If nothing else, it’s very paradoxical.  At times, it is a great burden to carry the truth, especially when others aren’t there to help support you.

Sometimes, I find myself wishing I could go back to that naive little child where everything was perfect and I was always happy.  Yet there are other times where I feel like I wouldn’t trade who I am now for a hundred years of happiness if it meant giving up the truth, because I know I am much freer now and in greater control of the world around me, which in itself brings happiness sometimes.

The truth is a powerfully addictive drug.  The more you learn, the more you can’t help but continue learning.  The more you know, the more you become aware of just how little you actually know in comparison to the sum of all things that can be known; and this newly discovered level of ignorance just spurs the desire to learn that much more.

Many addicts will tell you that, initially, their drug of choice induces a natural high.  But after a while, it becomes customary and routine, so the person falls out of that euphoria into a deep trench and needs a greater dose to reach the same feeling of high as before.  This, of course, creates an escalation in which the highs get higher and the lows get lower.  The sine wave of ups and downs begins to grow in amplitude, but to what extent?  Are we to simply not learn anything at all and be content in our ignorance or is it worth the pains to climb the mountain of knowledge?  Is it worth it to build wings of wax and fly towards the sun, even with the full knowledge that our efforts were in vain from the very beginning and that we’re destined to plummet back into the sea?

Do we simply build better wings?  The better our wings, the higher we soar, but the farther we also have to plummet back down.  Is such a thing worth it?  I think that’s a choice that every man or woman must come to terms with at some point in their lives.  Personally, I like flying, so I’d rather learn to fly than be stuck in the ground.  Being stuck isn’t any fun at all.

Without that feeling of high, you might as well just be a robot and live forever.  I think that idealism is the high and cynicism the low when it comes to knowing things.

One time, I got a fortune cookie fortune that simply said “Don’t give into cynicism.”  What if Kennedy had given into cynicism?  We might not have gone into space and the world would be a totally different place than it is today.  Maybe if we learn enough, and if our wings are constructed well enough, we ourselves will reach into outer space where gravity effects us less, and from there we’ll have laid the foundation for soaring toward the stars, metaphorically speaking.

Symbols, Part 4: The All-Seeing Eye

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“He who experiences the unity of life sees his own self in all beings, and all beings in his own self, and looks on everything with an impartial eye.” ~ Buddha

Besides the pyramid, there is probably no better-known symbol amongst conspiracy theorists and their opponents than the all-seeing eye.  Among its names include the Eye of Ra, the Eye of Horus, the Wadjet, the Eye of God, the Eye of Providence, the Eye of the World, and many others.  It is seen prevalently in Egyptian and Buddhist art and, perhaps most notably, on the back of the one dollar bill.

But why is it there and what is the purpose of this symbol?  To understand that, we must understand a bit about the history of the symbol.

“The sun illuminates only the eye of the man, but shines into the eye and the heart of the child.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

The ancient Egyptians worshiped the sun as a god.  To them, the sun was the giver of life, the creator, the one who revealed the truth, and the protector and savior of humanity.  In their art and literature, the sun was portrayed as the falcon, Horus, among others.  The right and left eyes of Horus were said to be reminiscent of the sun and moon.  In many other cultures as well, the sun and moon play a central role in mythology.  For instance, the Mesoamerican tale of the Hero Twins in the Popol Vuh is an allegory of these astral bodies, as are many Greco-Roman myths.  This is hardly surprising, given how important the sun and moon are to the systems of the natural world.

As we know, the circumpunct is a symbol of the sun.  The all-seeing eye is also a symbol of the sun.  Its different iterations derive from either the eye of the falcon (Horus), the circumpunct, and / or the vesica piscis.  Being a symbol of the sun, it represents many of the same things: power, divinity, wisdom, life, creation, enlightenment, goodness, etc.

The all-seeing eye is also symbolic of the Ajna Chakra (also called the third-eye chakra).  This is a point in the energy level of the body that sits roughly in the middle of your forehead and corresponds to the pineal gland of the endocrine system.  The Ajna is said to be the source of intuition and is what makes us aware of our connection to all things in the universe, as though we were a single root in a very big tree.

The all-seeing eye is a symbol of God, the almighty creator, and his ability to see and know all.  Unfortunately, like a great many symbols, the all-seeing eye has been hijacked for its ability to affect the psyche.

“Every messenger of Allah did warn his nation about the trials of the Dajjal … He will claim to be God and try to create doubts in your minds.  Have a firm belief, the one-eyed creature cannot be your Lord … He will claim to come with the gifts of paradise and arsenal of hell.” ~ Mohammad

Many people are familiar with the idea of the Antichrist.  Despite the fact that it’s never mentioned in Revelation, they often associate it with those events and believe that he rise of the Antichrist will precede the end of the world.

In Islam, there is a similar concept, known as the Dajjal, or great deceiver.  According to Mohammad, the Dajjal can easily be recognized by its one eye.  More specifically, its right eye (the moon, feminine, yin, compassion, submission) will be blinded and its left eye (the sun, masculine, yang, power, dominance) will be bulging.  This suggests a great deal of suffering and control that is not balanced or offset by anything.  In Revelation, we know that the Antichrist will bring war and famine and disease.  In Islam, the Dajjal will emerge in a time of falsehood, usury, corruption, and oppression to bring about more of the same.  The documentary Shadows in Motion explains a great deal about the history of the Dajjal, along with its true form.

It is important to note that, in both religions, the offending party is not just a single man or woman, but is in fact anyone who goes against truth, justice, love, and goodness.  To do harm to humanity is to serve the Dajjal, while to help your fellow man is to be on the side of goodness and light. In our modern world, the all-seeing eye has become a symbol of the forces that would seek to corrupt and destroy us for the pleasure and power of a few.

But the Antichrist / Dajjal isn’t just one, or even a few, specific people.  It’s not the President, the government, America, or money.  It is a cancer of society and the mind, and the idea that causes such persons and organizations to become corrupt and evil.  Absolute power corrupts absolutely, and the all-seeing eye has become the banner of that idea.

The eye is most famously associated with the Illuminati – a name that has come to embody the collective forces of evil.  In Dan Brown’s Angels & Demons, the shape of the oval is really meant to be the all-seeing eye.  It also appears in movies such as National Treasure and Tomb Raider.  Some other examples of its use are on the dollar bill, in Freemasonry, and logos of media groups like CBS, Lucas Arts, AOL, Time Warner Cable, and Nickelodeon.  It’s also used in Toyota, Lada, Big Brother, Information Awareness, the MI5 logo, Illuminati Online, Sagem, Endemol, and many others.  Frequently, it is used in companies responsible for the dissemination or safe-guarding of information, since the all-seeing eye is also the eye of truth that sees everything.  Those that don’t want you to know the truth can be identified, in part, by their one eye.

In both Islam and Christianity, it is believed that the Dajjal or Antichrist will be defeated with the return of Christ.  Just as the enemy is not one man, so too is the Christ not one man, but an idea.  The word “Christ” comes from Greek and means “the anointed one.”  It is not a name, but a title.  Anyone who is “baptized in fire” that is, open to and aware of the Spirit, i.e. their connection with God as a part of him, is anointed and thus is Christ.  So, in all practical terms, to defeat the forces of evil, you must become aware of who you are and stop subjugating yourself to the institutions that use these symbols and ideas against you.  You have your own all-seeing eye in the back of your head.  Start using it.